I don’t know how to feel, or what to think! Are all these signs telling you to get away from me? Or am I just over reacting. Meditating on every step I take. Hoping that this step wouldn’t break. I’m trying to forget the past and think for the future, but that just doesn’t seem to happen. I feel hopeless and helpless all at the same time. I can’t do anything right. I don’t know whats wrong or what did I do but I need some help to feel brand new. I wanna cry i really do, but that’s not gonna help me deal with you. You’ve been mad all day what more can i do? I’ve tried everything I could just to please you. I’ve said the sweet things that a girl should say, and i made sure you were OK throughout the day. I don’t know what to do with you. You got my head spinning, my heart racing, and my mind not knowing what to do. My eyes tearing and my heart paining because of everything you say and do. Today was really rough, and i tried to stick it out. But now I’m all confused and depressed, and i just want to get out! I love you, I do but you make it impossible for me to really express me! What am i suppose to do so that this won’t stress me!

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In the dumb hoe class today, I found out that we are beginning our mini cap stone. Ok, that is no problem with me cause that’s what I have been waiting for. But, I realized that these damn people want us to do our cap stone on things that we are surely not learning. We are a programming class, but yet we are not programming. We are stuck on this damn Alice program and not moving anywhere!!! The dumb hoe quick to tell us that this is a gaming class, but we are not making any games… This bitch just all messed up! Now, I have to make some freakin miracle happen, and miraculously figure out how to “Design and execute a interactive game” on Alice. How in God’s heaven am I going to do that???? I DON’T EVEN KNOW!!!!! This really is… SOME RIDICULOUS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!